I blog!
Hmmmmm... shall I blog about the ice day? Or something deeper?
Why not both?
All these questions. I guess I'm having alot of questions lately.
Why are there 2 Capri Suns in the trash when I have none?
Why can't they cancel class today?
What do I do next?
How will I get all my stuff done to graduate?
I feel like my biggest question, one that transcends where I am or what emotion I'm feeling, is Am I loved?
I know Jesus loves me. I've had this as a recurring theme lately on my blog. I kinda want to focus more on the human aspect of that this morning.
In general, I make it a point to hang out with my B4 girls. They are smart, fun and awesome individuals who are more than neighbors. We share life together. I feel like I stick in this clique waaaaaay too much whenever I have the chance to branch out and talk with the RAMAs, senior staff, or Putnam guys. I blend in when that cute guy walks by. I pretend not to notice. But I do. That's how I've been since junior high. Just hide in the crowd. Melt away into that circle of girls who are always talking and laughing. After we had our complex Legends of the Strong Temple trivia night last night, I definitely felt like a part of a clique. I had branched out and greeted the female RAs and talked to one of the males, but I wish I was more comfortable with the Putnam guys. Maybe it's a good thing I'm not gonna introduce myself to them all. But maybe I'm hurting myself. What if the guys are just as intimidated by a group of girls as we are of them? I do wish we could share a few meals with them a bit. Perhaps I could get an idea into Stacy's head? Hm, we shall see. And if all else fails, I'll at least have a few friends from the complex I didn't have before! :)
Interesting thoughts.
With the Am I loved question, I think that will be answered in due time. Valentine's day is coming up. Hopefully, I'll get roses from Daddy. But other than that, I'm ready to lock myself away and ignore the 14th in my homework and working that horrible KU game. If anyone decides they want to give me roses, they'll have to do it after I'm done sleeping off the headache I'll get trying to staff that game.
You're more focused on your lack of a man's love and are blinding yourself to how much your Father in Heaven loves you! Your Daddy in Heaven sends you gifts each day! The sunshine, the refreshing rain, a crazy unpredictable snow day, He constantly showers you with gifts! Why? Because you are His daughter...you're the daughter of the Most High King!
ReplyDeleteDon't concern yourself with the affairs of men, they're not intimated, if they are, then they're not men anyways. You need a man, someone whom is strong and can effectively lead you to grow closer to God. Until then, you're better off on your own, as they have nothing else to offer, other than their empty words and mediocre friendship.
God Bless Sister!