Comfortable? Yep.

Why yes, I do like my little iTunes with my music, sittin' on a comfy couch, with a warm laptop on my lap, friends near me. Sip some hot chocolate, wear comfy clothes, sleep in a warm, comfy bed. What's wrong with that?

Nothing.

But what about hanging out with my same friends? Shunning those who are planning on getting completely wasted this saturday for Fake Patty's Day? Laughing at them as I talk about God with my circle of Christian friends?

Yesterday, I was mad. Throughly ticked off.

"Get off my grill, man! Quit preaching at me! You don't know me. Ugh. Pointless. Annoying. A waste of time."

These were the thought that ran through my head at our reflection after our InterVarsity meeting. We were reading the passage in John that has the application of 'get out of your boat,' your comfort zone and DO SOMETHING.

Fine. The application was to go out in pairs to Derb and walk up to random people and ask them if there was anything we could do to bless their day.

When asked if this would work, I immediately said no, it's too awkward. No one will do it, much less WANT to do it.

We ended up going out. It WAS horrible. It was like pulling teeth. I was out of my comfort zone.

During that reflection, I decided it was pointless. Why go up to random people and do random things for them, like give them a hug or tell them a joke?

Ok, ok, it wasn't that I got kicked and shot down, I do feel like I made at least one girl's day. But really? What was the point in that??!

I really don't have any answers at the current moment. I feel that I need to keep fanning the little tiny flames of this Bible study. I can't put giant logs on just yet, that will smother and kill the fire!!!

Hopefully, I'll get to the bottom if this dissonance in my thoughts soon.